full of faith

"the tempted, the anxious, the fearful, the discouraged may all find new hope and good cheer in the knowledge that our Heavenly Father is faithful."

temptation, anxiety, fear, and discouragement have all seeped into my heart the past week. but the great thing about having a such a sinful heart, is knowing that i have a Savior who is faithful, and will be faithful for all eternity. 

one year ago, i moved to college. if you've explored this blog much, you could probably find the post from when i first moved. i'll save you some time and just tell you, i struggled with the transition. so as i packed my belongings into boxes and boxes for my second year, my anxiety grew. it grew inside me until it was a wild garden that could not be cut back or trimmed or pruned. 

i was scared to death that moving to school would replicate itself from last year, and i would find discouragement everywhere i turned. that i would be tempted to pursue things not pleasing to The Lord. that i wouldn't bring glory to Him. that i wouldn't be able to live up to all the expectations i have for myself.

but i moved anyway. i cut my hand on a box, and drove two hours to my new home. despite my anxiety and discouragement from a lack of trust in The Lord, as soon as i moved my boxes and boxes into my new room, i was overwhelmed with a sense of peace.

the last three days since i moved back to school have been full of blessing after blessing. wonderful friends, amazing fellowship, incredible encouragement. i stand back, truly in awe of the goodness and faithfulness of our Abba Father. that doesn't mean i'm not scared, or i'm not anxious about what could happen. but what it does mean is that i have assurance and comfort by the King of Kings that He is avidly taking care of me.

Tozer writes on the character of God, specifically His faithfulness,

"God, being who He is, cannot cease to be what He is, and being what He is, He cannot act out of character with Himself." 

He cannot stop being faithful and that is a beautiful truth. 

*quotes from The Knowledge of the Holy, A.W. Tozer